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The Activation: How Soul Psychology™ Was Born

By Dr. Lisha Antiqua, PhD

I was thirteen the first time I heard God’s voice clearly.

Not as a thought.
Not as a hope.
Not as imagination.

A voice coming from a vision, as I crunched down in the middle of Dry Lake (a spot in Northglenn, Colorado that is now covered in homes),

at that moment, as I was shaking and crying, a bright light was before me. A steady, unmistakable voice spoke into my spirit and said only: “Go home. Tell.”

Two simple commands that split my life in two.

I knew exactly what I was supposed to tell.
I knew it would change everything.
And I knew nothing would ever be the same again.

What I didn’t know then was that this moment was not a rupture; it was an activation and a calling to my soul to help all the others experiencing generational trauma, end these cycles of abuse, and welcome in our new world.

At the beginning of a mission, I would spend decades growing strong enough to carry.

A Childhood Split Between Heaven and Hurt

My childhood was a divine paradox and devastating at once.

On one side, there was profound spiritual light:

I worshiped God.

I sang praises.

I cared for horses, dogs, and the occasional duck.

I danced and performed.

I saw angels.

I sensed spirits.

Spoke in tongues

Learned energy work.

Practiced intuition and spiritual medicine.

I knew things beyond the veil that no one taught me.

I was a mystic child in a world with no language for what I carried.

But the other side of my childhood held pain so deep it carved itself into my nervous system.

I was sexualized far too early.
I was beaten with belts, sticks, and even garden hoses.
Fear became my daily companion from ages eight to fourteen.

And at 11, I had a near-death experience that left me consciously fragmented — with an understanding that I had a body, I wasn’t it, I had habits, I wasn’t them, and I had experiences, and I could observe and separate from them.

And yet… through every shadow, there was still unmistakable light.

This is the contradiction that shaped me:
I saw God even in the places no child should ever see.

The Body Keeps the Secrets We Cannot Speak.

When children cannot speak the truth, their bodies speak for them.

By adolescence, mine was screaming.

Chronic bronchitis.
Mono — twice.
Bulimia.
Adrenal failure.
Hormonal chaos.
Celiac disease.
CPTSD.
Nights where the exhaustion of existing became unbearable.

My body held every secret that my consciousness could not connect to.
It was collapsing under the weight of not being validated, being shamed, and learned survival.

And still, beneath everything, God’s words echoed:

Go home. Tell.

One day, I would understand what that truly meant.
One day, I would help others do the same.

Junior High: Remembering the Light

Despite the bruises, despite the fear, despite the illness, I rose.

In junior high, something inside me glowed.

I excelled.
I performed.
I sang.
I laughed loudly.
I felt God in every breath.

Without being taught, I understood chakras, and a VHS of Shirley MacLaine found me.
I felt energy move through rooms. I noticed when I was out of my body and when I was within.
I sensed emotions and spirits the way others sense weather, but now I understood they are just like me, living beyond the body.

My gifts awakened even though my wounds were unhealed.

I lived in two worlds at once: the mystical and the mundane, never fitting entirely into either. In both places, I was me.

High School: The Shattering

And then it happened again. My gifts shamed, my desire to fit in, my ego bodies denied my consciousness, aka soul. Triggered by Trauma — this time emotional.

Friends turned.
Rumors spread.
The ground beneath me cracked open.

I learned another early spiritual truth:

People fear what they do not understand — especially when it shines.

But this shattering wasn’t the end.
It was preparation.

Because every spiritual calling has a descent.
Every prophet, healer, teacher, and guide walks through exile before embodiment.

Illness and Loss: Cancer at 21, Grief at 25

At 21, cancer came as a messenger, calling my soul to my body, “Pay attention to me. I am your home.”
At 25, losing my best friend cracked my heart again, feeling her ashes, awakened in me a volt of energy, remembering, we live on, beyond our experiences, beyond our human walk.

Illness and grief brought me deeper into myself, not to escape life, but to understand it.

These early losses became part of my formation:

Death taught me presence.
Illness taught me humility.

Loss taught me purpose.

Yoga and the Return to Myself

Yoga saved my life. Bikram Yoga, Ashtanga, Kundalini, Iyengar, Forrest, and all the limbs helped me see myself, to witness the self and others.

It healed my adrenal failure. It taught me how to breathe again. It returned exploration and fun to the dance between my consciousness and my body — the place trauma had once lived and it brought unity from my soul leaping in and out of my human vessel, and my human vessel.

Yoga wasn’t an exercise.
Yoga was remembrance.

It awakened something ancient inside me — 
the same truth all mystics discover:

I am more than the body I inhabit.
I am more than the thoughts I think.
I am more than the emotions I feel.
I am more than the energy field around me.

I am the presence observing it all, the consciousness, the soul enwrapped in Spirit.

This is the seed of what would become Soul Psychology™
and the Amazing You Method.

Rejected by Christians and Yogis: Exiled by Both Worlds

When I started writing, teaching, and sharing my experiences:

Christians said I was too mystical.
Yogis said I was too Christian.

Both wanted the parts of me that validated their worldview.
Neither wanted the whole truth.

So, I did what mystics have always done:
I withdrew.
I prayed.
I studied.
I listened.

Some missions are built in silence.

Writing books like ALL IN (Yoga Sutra and Bible comparison), From Bondage to Happiness, exploring love and God, and I read every spiritual, saintly, religious, and mystical book I could get my hands on.

And in the quiet, something inside me crystallized.

Marriage as Mirror: The Last Great Lesson

My marriage taught me the final lesson I needed before stepping into my calling.

I thought fighting meant I was cared about. I thought being wrong was my way of being humble and acting like I wasn’t as aware as I am. I thought proving myself meant I could earn love.

But marriage mirrored back the wounds I hadn’t yet healed. The ones that convinced me I had to earn my worth.

It took years to get him to leave. I had it all planned, taking the advice from women who divorced before me. I waited for him. It wasn’t a failure.
For the four final years of our marriage, I was in an initiation.

The moment I chose truth over survival, everything shifted. I validated myself, my experiences, and reclaimed authority over how I take care of my vessel.

How Soul Psychology™ Was Born

Soul Psychology™ didn’t come from school.
It didn’t come from theories.
It didn’t come from certifications.

It came from remembering.

From being cracked open by trauma.
From miracles reminding me who I was.
From fragmentation caused by illness and programming.
From the clarity that gathered me back together.

What I finally understood is this:

I have a body — but I am not my body.
I have a mind — but I am not my thoughts.
I have emotions — but I am not my feelings.
I have a magnetic field — I am not the life I attract.

I am a consciousness, a soul, alive to create and/or live in creation. I can be a slave to the world and the tools I have to live within it, or I can master myself and choose to live embodied, creating.

The soul is your expression of consciousness; the essence is unique to you.
The divine identity underneath everything is what I had been hearing, seeing, and sensing my entire life.

My energy, intuition, identity, physical form, and authority all live within what I now call the Conscious Field, the etheric space where the soul expresses through the human form. I can leave this “home” and explore other worlds, create the new in imagination, and bring new things into being (as many mystics teach).

Once I understood this, everything snapped into place.

I remembered myself.
I reclaimed myself.
I returned to myself.

I am still learning how to not react to some of my body's programming, trauma responses, and desire to be loved, received, and fulfilled, but every day I remember is a day I am living soul forward.

Accepting My Mission

Now, decades later, I finally understand what God meant at thirteen:

Go home. And Tell.

Go home to your body — your soul's home, to live your best life on earth.
Tell the truth of who you are, your soul expression as a mission.
And help others do the same, we are all supporting one another in one way or another, as we are all one in Spirit.

To help you awaken — call all fragments home and end cycles of pain so that you can live your best life.

That is my calling.
That is the foundation of the Amazing You Method.
That is why Soul Psychology™ exists.
That is why God kept me alive (a few times).
This is what every illness, betrayal, activation, and awakening prepared me for.

I help souls come home. To be safe, secure, and soul-led into success, aka SSS — this is the practice I lead in all of my programs at Y.O.U. and I.O.E., to actively remember that you are a soul and you have a vessel to live and create in.

I help you remember who you are.
Reclaim your identity.
Break generational programming.
Speak your truth.
And rise into your divine design.

This is my purpose.
This is my path.
This is why I am here.

And now, it is your time to come home too.

Get your road map with the Soul Confidence quiz at YourOwnUniversity.com. You are now activated. Welcome to your soul calling.

Also, published with MEDIUM - read more of my articles and stories there - https://medium.com/@lishaantiqua/the-activation-how-soul-psychology-was-born-7c159260e3b4